Day 10

Funny little story I want to add in here real quick. The other day at work I was jumping around at work and just all around hyper. I think my boss thought I was on crack. Hee hee. Anyways I realized that I was just happy. Happier then I have been in a long time. And it wasn't because something had just happened to make me happy, or some one said something to make me happy. I just woke up happy. And it is an amazing feeling.
Now onto the other stuff.
This morning I weighed in at 222.8. WAHHHOOOO!!!! I wanted to cry I was so excited. But as exciting as that is, I still find myself going "Okay, why not more?" Then I remember "Duh, you're not exercising."
I'm getting to that point now I think. Before I kept telling myself, I was going to get up in the morning, and I was going to walk. Then I would get up, and want to cry because my feet and body hurt so bad I could die. But now even with just a 10lb loss I can already tell it's easier to get up. My goal is by   September 19th to be up and walking every morning. Hopefully that will also be another 10lbs gone so it will be even easier. That thought alone gives me more hope and faith in myself that I CAN DO THIS!

The Beginning

I decided I wanted to keep a blog on my work to lose weight. This first post is going to include a note I had posted on Facebook last week.... My posts will be random, someone more then one in a day and maybe not for days at a time. But I hope that whoever reads this can take something from it and help themselves.

Facebook Post:

This has been a big problem for me for a couple years now, and I'm done with it. I have finally put my foot down and I am going to make this work!

Now let me explain what I'm talking about. :)

My whole life I have always been "over-weight". In 2008 I lost a lot of weight (about 41lbs in about 6 months) due to health issues and got down to a size I was happy with. 169lbs and size 10 pants. I wasn't "super-model" skinny. But I was happy. Then I got pregnant with my daughter and all that weight came back....and it brought friends.

So here I stood on September 1, 2011 at 23 years old and 232lbs. In three years I had gone back up 63lbs. I'm not happy with it, and frankly neither is my body. I get up in the morning and I can't walk, my knees are always hurting, my ankles are always hurting. I'm carrying around too much weight for my body frame to handle. So as I said at the beginning. I am done with it.

I've been trying to find a diet plan that will work for me. I love food, esp. the yucky for you kind. :) And it's hard for me to give that up. So how can I make this work? Without making myself more miserable because I can't eat what I love to eat, or not being able to lose weight and staying fat?

I've been about war with myself for a while now, my will power to lose weight was sorely losing to my will power against fatty food.

You know what did it for me?

My daughter. My beautiful, precious daughter. I am her mother, the one she loves and looks up to and wants to be exactly like.

So will I be the role model for her to be over-weight? Or will I scare her with that I weight that she doesn't want to be like me and turn her into someone who doesn't eat? Both of these are extreme causes. But the thoughts are scary enough for me, and the slap in my face that I needed.

One thing that got me thinking about this was something I saw on TV last year. The show "The Biggest Loser" had a contestant on there named Lisa.

"A defining moment for Lisa was when she discovered her daughter had stopped eating and drinking because she didn't want to be heavy like her mom." - http://www.nbc.com/the-biggest-loser/contestants/lisa/

What more of a shove in the right direction do you need then your daughter trying to starve herself to keep her from looking like mom?

Sarah is only two, and obviously not anywhere near that stage of thinking. But why wait?

So on 9-1-11 I started my plan. I have a really good friend who is also doing it with me, which is really helpful. In the past 4 days I have lost 4 pounds. Not much, but it's a start.

I count how many calories I eat in a day. I still eat whatever I want, it doesn't cost me anything to have a program to tell me how and what to eat. And my motivation is ultimately my daughter's health.

With that in mind, there is no way I can't do this.

WISH ME LUCK!!!! :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

It's been four days since I posted that on Facebook. I'm on day eight and I'm down 9lbs. How exciting is that?!